I am still haunted, you are still here with me i know i need to move on and all hope is gone but you will always be here haunting me in more ways than one.

Its still here, laying on my shelf with what was still trapped inside, its the last bit of you i have left, its words now meaningless i still hang onto it in hopes that one day thoese words will come to life once more and never die again.

Days and time now seem like a death row sentance the more i hang on the longer my time,if and when i except may god have mercy on my soul

Sometimes i wonder and get lost in thought sometimes i ask who is doing the haunting? me or you? mabie its me trying to hard to connect to whats moved on into the next life, the new life.

Ifs and buts and should ofs and could ofs pollute my mind everyday, wanting the power to turn back time and make things different are now becoming a dream.

Your pressants still lingers here and i wont let it leave me alone, i have be friended it in hopes that one day i can touch apon its soul and heart once more

Ive moved to derby now in time for my horse care course.
bit lonely and i dont know how to work my radiator so im cold too lol (dozy mare)

Its a bit noisy but its early days yet im sure when weve been in a set routine for a week or so everyone should have calmed down.

the doors are really heavy too um but theres a pub and a small supermarket near me and the areas quiet.

I hope to have visitors and overnight guests soon

Just want to update my journal so the sad one isnt staring me in the face everytime im on my home page,
and cuz im feeling better too.

I want to thank all my friends for supporting me through my difficult time i couldnt of done it as fast with out you all.

Thanks everyone xxxxxx

My boyfriend david (raindesigner) has left me and thinks we are better off as friends.

Now i am only half a person and wished to have woken up from this nightmare but now i have its not a happy ending i wish to never wake up again

I am currently finishing some new stewie pictures wich i hope you will all like and enjoy.

I am pleased with them very much.

Thanks to all my watchers and people who have commented and faved without you i would not carry on

Love Sarah x